date: 10-05-2024
mood: ,,,?
time: 4:36 pm
this is not me
i've been having these really weird dreams recently. they involve me hurting myself, using drugs, doing things that don't fit me or my personality. when i woke up today i felt disconnected, almost like,,, like i wasn't myself anymore. it's like i've been put in this body that doesn't belong to me. i have all the memories but it doesn't feel like it's me at all,,, it feels like i'm piloting someone else. i don't like this feeling at all. i thought it would go away so i've kept pretending like nothing is wrong but i'm still feeling like this as of writing this post. and to add to this, i don't agree with who this person has become. i hope i can solve this soon; i'm afraid i'll stay feeling like this forever.